oh god.

maybe i spoke too soon...

i have a really bad habit of overanalyzing
but my heart is very vulnerable
and it moves me to this state of panic.

i'm happy, i really am.
with or without him.
but to have come so far and
find what i've been waiting for...

only to have it snatched from me this soon?
i can't bear the thought.

i'm gonna have to trust Him,
that He's got it all under control
and i'm gonna have to trust him,
that he's not like the rest.

i'd rather have never known at this point.