problem solved.

it's good to have someone
shove you in the right direction.
someone who knows you so little
yet well enough to know just what to say.

i feel like i finally have a roadmap for this thing.

people forget how new this is to me
(i've never encountered something mutual like this)
but people also forget how scared i am to love
(and as a result, how scared i am to be loved)

i'm not a pro at this, in fact, i'm often awkward.

i'm not smooth like the other girls.
i don't know how to play that so called "game" that they play
apparently, it comes naturally...
i didn't get the memo or the ability to play.

but i'm getting ahead of myself.

alas, i'm just going to live for the moment
like i so previously aforementioned
i'm just gonna make today worth it.
with him or without him.

can't get ahead of myself, causes problems.

so just friends is the verdict.
for today. and tomorrow. and possibly forever.
but i'm not going to look that far ahead.
day by day, i'm going to choose to care for him.

and it will either stay or go.

sound simple enough?
cause it doesn't feel like it's going to be.
however, it does feel
like it's going to be worth it.